So, I've been pretty lame about updating since senior year started. I know. :/ It's not as easy as I thought. I've just been super busy with school, work, college prep, etc. Now that things are starting to slow down a little bit and I'm getting home earlier, I thought it would be nice to come back and update a little bit. So far I've made a ton of new friends, done a lot of working, and even tried a few new things. :) I'm currently learning how to make my own web sites and loving my AP English class. A lot of my assignments are online (except for English, but we usually get information about the assignment in an e-mail or have to write a blog entry for this site!). In English we just did a timed write last week and I was really excited because I got 75/70 on it! :D Yes, those numbers are correct and in the right order. Today I got to fix a picture in photoshop for one of my cousins. It is the cutest thing ever! I have officially decided that I may not want to go to a four year college right after high school. While it would be nice, I may want to go to a junior college, study abroad (which may be an option thanks to Rotary and Interact club), or take some time and figure life out. I'll be sure to keep busy and post about whatever I decide to do, but for right now I'm going to place applications to the schools that interest me and hope that I know what I'm going to do before I sign up to do anything. Anybody with true life experience, please let me know about some of the troubles you faced with post-high school plans. I'd love to hear about what happened and learn from those decisions. :) Thanks! Lots of love, Saved Individual

Things Change

I was looking back at some of my previous posts and realized that my life has changed a lot. I feel totally conflicted. I want everything to stay the same, but at the same time I want everything to change. I want to graduate, but I want to stay in high school. The more I want things to change, the more they stay the same (and vice versa). I feel like I finally turned everything around and figured it all out, but every time I figure something out I learn that there's still more to learn. I'm writing an essay for my English class. It's about the book "Handle With Care". We're supposed to write something about some moment when we finally realize what the story is supposed to be about. Kind of like a "find the hidden picture" puzzle. For those of you who haven't had the chance to read the book it's about a girl born with this rare disease where your bones break really easily. Her mother files a lawsuite saying she wishes her daughter had never been born and the person she sues just happens to be her best friend. The whole family is totally out of wack, but you can really see the love there. It's a great story. I recently wrote an essay about it, but didn't do so well. :/ Oh well! :) I'm ok with it. I still highly recommend the book to anybody willing to read. Next up, Senior year. I plan on documenting all of it. I started my senior year one week ago now. I started off with some pretty awesome classes, but after switching out of one of them, I found out that my classes are now FREAKING AMAZING!!!!!! I love it. there was a school dance last night too. It started out being pretty lame, but ended up being a great night. I'll have more to come next weekend. Lots of love, Saved Individual

A New Beginning

If you look back to the post about everybody wanting the fairytale ending you could probably point out some pretty dark stuff (all subconscious). I am fully going to admit here and now that I have been an "unhappy" person for quite some time now. However, this is a new start for me. It's the best time of my life. I just enjoyed prom with the best guy a girl could ask for, I joined the catholic church, and I am now working on becoming an artist and finding a college that can help make the last of my dreams come true. I know, it sounds like a lot in a short period of time. Trust me, it was crazy so I'm going to take things slowly here for you. First: prom night was amazing. There was drama up until the hour of. It drove all of us crazy. I wore my hair up in a side-pony tail with curls. I had silver heels, huge earrings, and an amazing make-up job. My dress had spaghetti straps, was royal blue, and had huge flowers on it (all decorated in zipper). I got a clutch to match the shoes and everything was perfect. My mom ordered pasta from a local Italian restaurant and we had our own "private catering" (my siblings and cousins) out in front of my house. We took my car to prom (I drove and it was way better than a limo) and I spent the whole night with a complete gentleman. After prom we went back to my house for ice cream and finished the evening at about 1:00 a.m. Second: Easter was even better than prom. No, the guy from prom did not get to attend the church service with me, but it was still a great night. On Saturday, April 23, I went over to church at nine in the morning for a reflection. At about 1:00 in the after noon I went home and started getting ready for my last shift at my first job (I spent the previous two weeks as the Easter Bunny in the mall) and got my picture taken with my whole family. When I got off work I went home, dyed eggs, had dinner, took a nap, then had to get ready for the 4 hour bilingual mass at church. It was a great night. I spent all day worrying that I wouldn't be able to do the full immersion baptism, but Father Francisco helped me get through it lol. after we changed our clothes we did confirmation. I picked Catherine as my confirmation name because she is the patron saint of art and that's where I want to go in life. It was a long decision making process to get the right name. It was between Monica, Margaret, Margaret (yes there were two), Elizabeth, Catherine, Genevieve, Edith, Esther, and Bridget. After confirmation there was our first holy communion. My mom got the whole night on video (which may or may not be a good thing). If you watch the video, you can see the look on my face after communion. Please don't ask about the taste of the Eucharist lol. Third: colleges are not easy to find. I can not find the right one to save my life. I need a school for art, but it has to be close enough that I can still go home on the weekends. I don't really feel like gong to a junior college, but I may have to. Maybe I'll do a few years in the military first. We'll see. This really does feel like a new beginning. Let me know if you have any ideas. I'll be back soon. <3 Saved Individual

My One True Passion

I was thinking earlier and came up with this thought: "If I could give the world one thing, I would give everybody or the world..." and that's as far as I got. I know what I would give the world, but I can't put it into words. I want to give the world passion. I want everybody to experience what I'm feeling right now. I know that I don't always give myself the credit that I deserve and today may or may not be one of those times. In my art class at school, we recently learned how to draw using contour lines (for those of you who don't know, it's one line that creates a picture) without looking. We eventually moved on to looking while we were drawing the contour lines. After about a week of contour lines, we got to pick our best drawing on the newsprint and use a light table to trace it onto white paper. From there, we cut our our picture, outlined every little piece onto various pieces of colored paper, cut out those pieces, then glued them all onto one piece of background paper. I looked at my finished project today and felt as if I could have done a better job. It kind of hurt. Then I got home and showed my mom and siblings a picture of the final project. They loved it! I was blown away and realized that I don't have to be perfect. I just have to be me and try my best. I have learned so much from my art class this semester and I can't wait to see what else I'll learn from this class. It's super exciting to know that I have six classes like this next year. I'm even starting to realize that I DO need certain skills that I'm learning in this class that I wouldn't learn in another art class and I'll need all the tools and resources available to me to be successful. This is my one true passion. Yes, I love reading, writing, and all of the other classic school subjects (for the most part). That doesn't change the fact that I am determined. Determined to succeed, to be creative, to achieve my dreams. I WILL get a job with graphic design, I WILL start my own advertising company, and I WILL be happy with who I am and what I'm doing. This isn't some crazy random thought, this is something that I have had serious thoughts about and what I want to do. What is your one true passion? What are you going to do with your life? It's a lot to think about, but you'll be able to find it. :) I'll be back soon! ~ Saved Individual

First Post of the Year

So it's the start of a new year and I'm deciding to make a new me. Decided to change everything about my life. Maybe be a little more outgoing, try to eat healthier, make new friends that I never would have thought about having a few years ago. It'll be good for all involved. Yes, I miss how I used to be, but isn't that what life is about? Growing up, changing, becoming a better person? We all should have New Year's Resolutions still. Most people have given up already and it's really lame. I'm starting to notice that even though things can get hard, it's not the end of the world. He has a plan for everyone and we each have to just keep going with it. Recently, I've started learning not to be so judgmental. Just because you've known people like somebody you see, doesn't mean that they'll act the same way. Just because you've created your own stereotypes about groups of people, doesn't mean that all of them are that way. Try to be friends with somebody new today. You never know what you're missing out on. Give them a chance. They deserve it just as much as you do. Good luck. Wish me luck too. I'm going to need it with what I'm up to lately. :) <3 Saved Individual

1000 Things To Do Before I'm Saved

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. These thoughts aren't exactly relevant to anything I've been writing about lately, but they are giving me a new view on life. I clearly remember the plane ride home from the class trip to New York/ Washington D.C. and they happened to be playing the movie The Bucket List. These two old guys fighting about everything and wanting to do all these crazy things before they die. In the end they do it too. Really good movie if you're in a "stay home in my jammies" kind of mood one Saturday night. Anyways, in my first period ROP class I keep hearing about this trip to Costa Rica. They're our rival high school so the other ROP students and I decided to put together a trip to Spain for our school. I looked up some places to see in Spain and found a lot of cool places like Toledo. I started thinking about this trip and how I'm so excited for it. Then it clicked. What if something happens and I don't get to do all of the things I want to do before I die? I don't want to die and I'm not planning my death, funeral, will, or anything else yet. I just think it might be a good idea to have a bucket list. Like a 1000 things to do before Saved knows what it's like to be "saved" kind of thing. We're still young. We can still "do it all" and have time left over for things life throws at us. I'm starting my list right now. Here's the first ten things to do (please note that these are for high school students, not seriously focused adults): 1.) Crash an opposing high school's dance 2.) Sneak "toys" into graduation 3.) Throw a graduation party for your 10 closest friens (they each get to bring 2, they each get to bring 2, etc., etc.) 4.) Be accepted into the college of your dreams 5.) Study abroad, even if it's only for a semester 6.) Learn a valuable lessson from a stranger 7.) Have a weekend long movie marathon with your best friends 8.) Watch the sun set and rise on a school night/morning 9.) Have fun doing something you love in public (and don't care what others think) 10.) Hit on as many people as possible in one day (see how many dates you get) Have fun with these ten. I'll post another ten asap. Comment me your ideas for the list. <3 Saved Individual

La clase de Espanol 4/ linguaje nativo Ap

Si me gusta mi clase de espanol cuatro linguaje nativo ap. Yo soy un estudiante muy lista. I estoy... mal. No sabe escribir en espanol sin un diccionario. Mi maestro de la clase de espanol dice escribir un poco en espanol todos los noches. Quiero ir a Espana esta vierno. Necesito un trabajo pagar. No tengo dinero. Me gusta mis amigos. Ellos son muy simpatico. Ellos no saben espanol. :/ Necesito un tutor para la clase de espanol. No me gusta escribir sin un diccionario porque no sabe las palabras usar. Well, that's all I have for my spanish teacher. Basically, the above stuff says that I like my spanish class. It's Spanish 4/ native language AP. I'm very smart, I feel bad, I don't like to write in spanish without a dictionary because I don't know the right words to use. I want to go to Spain this summer. I like my friends, I need money for the trip. It also says that my friends are nice, but they don't speak spanish and I need a tutor. It's kind of random stuff. I'm not doing so well in spanish right now (it is ap and I know very little Spanish, which I proved above). I go to tutoring once a week right now, but it might be easier if I got a different tutor or went more often with somebody that was more accessable. Anyway, my spanish teacher wants me to do this once a week tutoring and write a little bit in spanish every night. It's supposed to increase my vocabulary and improve my sentance structres in Spanish. I don't see it, but maybe he's right. I feel pretty accomplished because I have a passing grade. He only speaks to the class in Spanish and I'm the only non-native speaker in that class. My goal is to get a "B" and pass the stupid Ap test at the end of the year. That shouldn't be too hard, right? It just means I need to work a little harder than the other students. Well, that's all I have for my readers tonight. I'll post more soon. Good night. <3 Saved Individual

Peace and Quiet

It's been a while and I apologize. I've been a little busy with things like school, job searching, football games, etc. It's been a lot of work, but totally worth it. When you live a life like mine things get crazy sometimes. It gives you a second of excitement and pressure. It's not fun for that one second, but then you look back and it was actually fun having that one second of feeling like screaming. Anyway, I've been doing a lot lately and it's really exciting. I've made a few new friends this year already and I can't wait to see what other friends I'm going to make this year and next year. I went to the first home football game of the year. It was RVHS vs. Sutter so there was a lot of rivalry. I actually went with a few RV friends and one from Sutter. It was fun to make jokes with them and sit on the RV side. :) We went to the before school rally that day and went crazy making jokes about everything. I registered for the ccd class a few weeks ago and I went to the first official class this morning. It was not the way I remembered it... Oh well. It was still great and I love going. I ran into a mom that I met through VBS and she was excited to see me. I gave her my number and she was really happy that I volunteered to babysit for her. :) The past few months I've been doing a lot of job searching and things are finally starting to turn around for me there. For once, it's actually quiet in my house. It's kind of awkward lol. I'm not used to it being so quiet. I really like that it's silent sometimes, but right now I'm too excited about life and youth group later tonight. I need the music blaring and the windows closed so I can just rock out by myself. It's so... freeing. Forms of self expression are the best way to relieve stress. I was looking at earlier posts in my blog and see how I used to write. I miss that, but  as I grow and change, my writing must also change. I have a lot of reflecting and homework to do. I'll post again soon. <3 Saved Individual

Rules of the Road

As most of us here know, I got my license a little under a month ago. Go ahead and make your jokes about the roads being unsafe now, but I'm actually a really good driver (for just getting my license anyways). Normally, I don't care how you drive as long as you can get me from point a to point be then back home safely. However, lately I've discovered that a lot of drivers aren't as good as you might think they are. Really it's people in general doing the right thing, but it's more about following the rules of the road for me today. For example, today I drove over to my ROP class for first period. The light was green, but the crosswalk sign changed at the same time so I couldn't go because pedestrians have the right of way. I figured I would just wait until the time ran out or I would turn right on a red because that's legal if traffic is clear. Well the light was still green and the time had run out, but three students decided to use the cross walk anyways. If you didn't catch that, these high school students are crossing illegally and I totally had the right of way (unfortunately, you can't enter a cross walk when there are pedestrians in it). Anyways, on my way back to school there was this truck heading to the same parking lot I was. I was doing exactly the speed limit and somehow, the guy managed to pass me. I don't mind that he passed me. He should have been doing the speed limit though (not ten over). On my way home from school there was a lot of traffic near the exit I use. Nothing new, but still frustrating at times. Some lady (probably a freshman's mom) was trying to switch lanes (she didn't signal or have room to fit into the spot. The kind lady blamed me and let me see her bird if you know what I mean. I decided to take the high road by changing lanes (I was going to anyways), smiling at her, and waving. I think I'm done complaining for the night. I'll post again when I find out if I get to go to Shady Creek. Good night. Comment if you have any other driving dos and don'ts. <3 Saved Individual

Junior Year

So Junior year has officially started and I'm way excited. A lot is going to happen this year and I can't wait for it to happen.  Well I left on time like I was supposed to and things went well. However, I totally got lost on my way to first (my year long, off campus class). I learned that the "Spanish 4" class I signed up for, is actually Spanish 4 AP. Nothing else is open, so I'm stuck in the class that only speaks Spanish (where I understand nothing). I got lost on my way to my real school. I ended up getting into English late though. :/ It was a fun class, but it's going to be a lot of work. Turns out that the 500+ page book that we were "required" to read over summer wasn't actually required. Tomorrow we're writing an essay on the book, but if we didn't read it we can write about any other book we read over summer. It's not getting graded, just a free ten points for writing the essay. If I don't switch out of Spanish, this means I have to take 2 AP tests this year. :( Lame! Third period I have computer applications. It shouldn't be a bad class, but definitely not my favorite. The teacher told us that we're going to do a big project towards the end of the semester that I'm really looking forward to. We're not allowed to use the computers after we finish the assignments though. It's weird, but I can easily get away with checking e-mails, doing other homework, or doing research for my project. Fourth period I have the world's best Chemistry teacher. He's a little crazy, but it'll be a fun class. He started a fire in class today. It was really scary. He did say that we'll never need our books though, so that's a load out of my backpack. I went to a job thing at McDonalds, but that didn't go so well. Oh well, maybe next time. Better go do some work for Spanish. Wish me luck there. ttyl <3 Saved Individual

Let's give them something to talk about ;)

Freshman year I had an AMAZING teacher. He later became one of my track coaches and every time we were about to start a meet he would always tell us, "Go big, or go home." The way I see it, everything you do in life should be that way. So why shouldn't we give the people what they want? Insecure people will talk about you behind your back and they're not going to stop no matter what you do. Why not give them something to say? How people take it is their problem and who cares what they have to say? Obviously they're not your real friends. I know that I haven't posted in days, but I've been kind of busy. Family time, shopping, and other things. Since my last post I got my license, applied to a billion places for work, got new sunglasses, had my car sold, and hopefully figured out who I am as a person. People will ask you who you are and anybody could say their name, their age, where they're from, etc. Who can say who they are though? Not many of us. A name and a social security number doesn't define who you are, what you like to do, and what you're interested in. Anyways, I just got my hair done and it looks great. Tomorrow is my "falcon day" where I get my schedule (just room numbers this year since I made my schedule myself like a week ago), year book, pictures, parking permit, etc. I've heard a lot of my senior friends talking this year and I'm starting to realize how crazy next year is going to be. Starting my second year of CCD soon and I can't wait for that. Baptism this year along with confirmation and first holy communion. Few of you may know this, but I have a cartilage piercing in my right ear. I got it for my birthday six months ago. I've grown up a lot since then though and I'm starting to think that I might want to take it out. It would be cool to put it in my memory box to remind my self of the year I had or to make it some big deal and take it out with my Godmother right before my baptism. I would love that. Anyways, back to the school thing. I have the best schedule ever this year. I have to travel for first period, but that's ok. It's so worth it. I have Spanish 4 at YCHS, then I go back to RVHS for AP English 3 with Odegard, Computer Applications, and Chemistry with Mr. Lee. I don't really care about the teachers unless I requested them or know them. Second semester, I have Spanish 4 at YCHS, Student Aide with Mr. Hislop (no, that is not where I get help. Yes, that is where I help the teacher), US History, and Nutritional Science. This paper is saying that I'm supposed to have a PE class this year too, but that's not true. I may have to go in the first day of school and tell them to fix that. I'm really excited. Not only do I have the best schedule EVER, but I'm also a junior this year. Anybody have any idea what that means? No? PROM!!!!! I can't wait. I already have the dress and shoes. I think I have a date, but I want to see if somebody else asks me before I say yes. ;) Next year I get reduced days if I want. I could have gotten them this year, but I didn't want to sit at home by myself for 90 minutes. Then if I do sports I would have to drive all the way back to school. How lame would that be? Probably won't do sports though. :/ I need a job to pay for stuff like a car and college. After senior year I want to go abroad. Just a quick little vacation, but maybe I'll stay for school. I decided that I want to go into graphic design. Like the stuff on the Monster cans or the posters outside of the movie theater. I want to get paid to do stuff like that or go into advertising. That would be a sick job. Actually, I think I'm going to go work on that right now. Maybe find a good school to go to a few people that are in that field to see what the job is really like. You know, find all the basic information so I know exactly what I'm getting into. I'll try to update again before school starts and after the VBS staff party. TTYL!! <3 Saved Individual

VBS

The past five days of my life have been spent volunteering at "Beach Be Attitude" for the St. Isidore's Catholic Church Vacation Bible School. Children ages 3-12 come 10 am to 1 pm and hear stories from the bible, sing songs, make crafts, have a snack, and play games. Every year is tons of fun and we learn a lot. However, this year we had kind of an off week. The Thursday before the actual Vacation Bible School, we all had a meeting to make sure that everything was in place for the week and that weekend was used to make decorations. Everything was perfect as far as we could tell. We had a lot of children signed up to come, the shirts were on their way, and everybody was ready to be there at 8 am on Monday. Well during the meeting my little sister (who was looking forward to helping out for her first time this year) found out that she was supposed to be registered as a student this year. She was disappointed, but she got over it and had a lot of fun listening to both views of the day (leader and student). Monday came and the shirts weren't ready yet. The staff was a little upset, but we quickly got over it with the children running around the gym. The groups weren't ready for the leaders (jobs of the advisers) so everybody in the same age group traveled together and the leaders had to watch all 28 preschool kids. It wasn't so bad, but two of the kids were crying and one refused to participate all week. Worst day of the week (we ended up having one of the meetings we only have when somebody breaks a rule). Tuesday came and I was assigned to the fifth grade group (with my sister and the group refused to say more than three words at a time). Not my first choice since a parent requested me for their child (that I know and love) in the preschool (which I signed up for). There was a crazy girl spreading rumors about everything and to everybody (drama queen freshman) but she was eventually caught in her lies. Wednesday came and we finally got our shirts. Things were fine that day, but it was still more like an actual job than the fun it had been in the previous years. Thursday somebody lost a child and a friend of mine got blamed for it. The child was not in his rotation and, technically, not his responsibility. He refuses to return to help us out next year, with understandable reasoning in my opinion. I promised him things would be better next year and explained how previous years had been better. Friday came and things were fine for the most part. Some of the group leaders were a little irresponsible and some of the students were snots to me, but that is expected. While cleaning up there was a small mishap with the bleachers. The bleachers had broken earlier in the week and were again acting up while being put away. I was sent to fix the bleachers (by going underneath and lifting the switch) when some people began to push them back into the wall (most horrific experience of my life). We finished cleaning up and put everything in the car to take back to the "storage facility" that we keep the stuff in (the supervisor's garage). This week was not our best year and we hope to do better next year. Personally, I would like to move up in rank ( preferably to advisor, but not likely) so I can voice my opinions and ideas (I can now, but with the rank comes responsibility and a sort of weight in your opinion). Everybody seems to have had a lot of fun and is looking forward to the staff party. It has been an experience that I will never forget and one that I have learned a lot from. It may sound like a list of complaints, but those are the highlights of my week. If you have any comments or questions let me know. I would be happy to respond to every single one. <3 Saved Individual

Story of my life (in fairytale town maybe lol)

 Once upon a time in a crazy small town, there was a princess. She was pretty, popular, nice, smart, etc. She was everything you could ever want in a princess. She was a middle child with two younger brothers, an older sister, a puppy, and an older brother. All of the children were the same way, but with different interests. Well, most of them were anyways. It's like the story of the Ugly Duckling, but with people. The older sister was also a princess, but that's about where the similarities stopped. She was average. Yes, she was smart and nice just like the rest of them, but she was just normal. She went to school, she helped out around the castle, and hung out with the few friends she had when she had time. As you can imagine, the king and queen were very busy people. They were always busy taking care of royal business or caring for their children. The average sister didn't usually get all that much attention, so she started doing her own thing in life. She spent time caring for friends in need, looking for a carriage to drive, and getting ready for the day she would be asked to be queen for her mother. She already knew that she would say no, but she needed to find a way to give them the reason why. Her dream was to finish school, get involved in a new church, and live in the big city. She was going to get away from her life as a princess and make a new name for herself. People wouldn't have to know about her perfect family. She would be a strong independent woman that knows how to take care of herself. She would leave the friends and court jester that meant nothing to her behind, but she would keep the important people like her good friends and family members informed of how her new life was. They would all be so proud and excited that somebody had done something so great. They would speak to her in amazement. Everybody would be in shock that somebody that was so ordinary could take their lame life of living in the shadows of a small town and turn it into a fairytale ending. She would go to work everyday, travel the world when she didn't want to stay in her new home, and finally meet Prince Charming just like she always wanted to. The end. As you can see, this obviously isn't a true story, but it's my life. The only part of this that is slightly true is that it takes place in a small town and the princess (me) isn't perfect like the rest of her family. I feel like I've just been slapped in the face by my friends. I've been trying to care for a friend that's going through a hard break-up, but apparently I'm not good enough for him. He had to go talk to my ex-best friend and hear the exact same thing from her. Like I said, the princess was ordinary and wasn't as popular as her siblings. It all worked out in the end though, right? If all goes according to plan these next few years, I'll have that ending. :) Wish me luck. <3 Saved Individual

Oscar Wilde

"How else but through a broken heart may Lord Christ enter in?" That is a quote by Oscar Wilde, a British author that lived from 1856 to 1900. Yes, this quote may seem a little out dated because of how long ago it was said. However, it still rings true today. As teenagers (the age group I try to target with my writing), we experience a lot of heart breaks, pain, tears, and even "love", if you can call it that at our age. The way I see it, you're only young once so you may as well enjoy it. I am taking a ccd class to become a Catholic this spring. I want to be close to my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. Lately, I've been learning a lot from my mistakes and trying my hardest to fix them. I've seen a close friend go through a rough break-up and it's killing me to see him suffer. :_( For a while, I lost all faith I gained while in ccd last year. It was the broken heart that brought me back and made me want to get back into my religion before things got any worse. Now, I feel like nobody is reading. Maybe it's because it's about 1 am, or maybe it's because I haven't had a comment in days. I have my friends though and maybe it's time to have them read my blog too. I guess I should go get ready for tomorrow. Maybe do some homework for school this fall. Before I go I want to post about a few little things that nobody will care about lol. It's totally random, but whatever. Saw the new Twilight movie today. Hung out with friends for hours after my driving lesson. I can't drive to save my life and the movie wasn't bad. Summer has been lame so far. Talk to me? Just let me know and we can be friends on facebook and stuff. Please comment so I know that I'm not just writing this for my benefit. <3 Saved Individual

It's a small world

As you can see (if you read regularly), I just updated my page. I've had a lot of time to think about things and decided that it was time for a change. I recently started listening to the radio a little more often and found 103.9 The Fish. It's Christian music and some of it really speaks to me. Music plays a big part in my life. Listening to the music makes me miss going to church and my ccd class every Sunday. I've been hearing a lot of things lately like various traditions that go along with the Pamplona Bull Run in Spain and why people are so upset with Fifa right now. It's actually a really funny story. Not something that I would have caught on my own either lol. People are mad at Fifa because in the world cup it was Nigeria against Germany. Some smart person decided to write Nig. vs. Ger. for who was playing (of course it had to be the game with Germany lol). I totally disapprove of what happened, but it was probably just an accident. Anyways, back to The Fish. I was talking to a friend about the station when they told me about a different one called K-Love. I started listening to them too. The other day they were talking about how people can connect on their website. Two people became friends on facebook after "meeting" on the site and were friends online for two years. They decided to meet for the fourth and shockingly, didn't get killed. On the one hand, it's a really stupid idea to make friends online. However, in cases like this it really makes you think about what happened to society over the years. I was reading a book for English and read about the things we did to the Native Americans. I was shocked and very upset. No, I did not cry. Yes, I did want to. Maybe we should all be a little more open? I'm going to start by trying to be "friends" with some of the bloggers I recently started following. All of these bloggers are really talented and their thoughts should be heard. It's a great way to learn about customs and society in other countries too. I'm learning a lot about Jamaica. ;) I'm going to start working harder at learning about other countries and their customs. For example, did you know it is socially acceptable to call people fat in some parts of Mexico? It's crazy and doesn't seem right to people in America (even though most of us are). I better go take care of the new puppy. :) She's so cute. She's a British Bull Dog and she's sooo chubby. She's getting big fast. Comment away if you know anything about other countries or know a way I can learn about them. Greatly appreciated. ;) ttyl <3 Saved Individual

So much for waiting a week

I know that I said I was only going to post once a week for the summer, but that's not working for me anymore. Not this week anyway. Life is a learning experience. Everyday, we learn something new. This week I learned more than my fair share of things. One example, adults were kids once. A lot of them don't like to admit it, but it's true. They were all our age once and made mistakes just as bad as ours. Most of the time it feels like it's hard to admit to a mistake, but if you just tell them what happened the punishment is a lot less than what it would be if you tried to hide it. I also learned that adults DO care and love you. Try talking to them when you're thinking about doing something stupid. They have reasons for saying no sometimes. I'm just looking forward to school starting again and working at a vacation bible school until then. I feel like an emotional wreck and I'm driving myself crazy with missing my friends. As a teenager, we want to be independent. In reality, we should be wanting to be closer to our parents. Looks like we need a bit more experience before we realize it. Like they say, "you don't know what you've got 'til it's gone". Maybe we should find a balance between the present and what could happen down the road. I know that after this summer I'm going to be planning things a lot better than I have this week. Ttyl <3 Saved Individual

Summer

Here, summer break has been going on for like a week now. I've decided that people have lives and would like to spend this time with family and friends, not reading some stupid blog that some person they don't know is writing. It just seems pointless to read what somebody else has to say when they could be out living their own lives. It is that very reason that I am cutting my blog entries to once a week during summer (which is actually more often than during the school year lol). Anyways, summer break is a wonderful time for anybody. Summer means no school, late nights, hanging with friends, new adventures, and just being lazy. Sometimes it means it's time to get a job, but that's only if you're old enough. I can't wait to spend this summer doing who knows what. It's going to be so fun. Hopefully I'll get a job and do a ton of homework. I've already spent the first week having late nights with friends. It's making me tired lol. I need to go to the mall more often. Apparently, they now have a hurricane machine there. $2.00 and you get like 5 minutes of 100 mph winds. It's crazy fun. The stores got some cute clothes too. SHOPPING TIME!!!!!! I should get some of my closer friends and go to the mall with them. Good quality time with the girls would be nice to have this summer. All of that sounds like a ton of fun, but I realized recently that summer is also a time of growing and learning. We as teenagers are bound to make more mistakes during summer. We LEARN from the mistakes and GROW as people. We turn into proper ladies and gentlemen found in everyday society. It's a wonderful experience as well as a challenging one. It isn't always fun, but it's a good thing in the long run. I wish everyday could be a summer day, personally. I learn more from real experiences that actually happened than I do from sitting in a classroom. I better finish up here. Another late night is about to start lol. I'll tell you guys more about that some other time. Ttyl! <3 Saved Individual

I know, I know. I feel really lame about last night

I know that I promised you guys an update days ago, but things got a little crazy. I haven't even really been on the computer since then. It's all been mobile or at school, where I can't update. Anyways, school is officially out, I'm officially a junior, and the class of 2010 has officially graduated. The last week of school was crazy. It was a lot of fun though. All we really did was turn in a bunch of late work, watch movies, sign yearbooks, and "study" for our finals. Seniors had graduation practice all week long. Graduation was nice. :) I ACTUALLY got to go too. I loved it. They all walked in, they said the pledge, national anthem, and the welcome in three languages. A lady had a falcon that did not want to fly for her then when it did, it did not want to come back (yes, we are the falcons). The principal gave his little speech and it was a quick one. There was a special speaker that made a crazy speech, but it was the most fun speech to listen to. Then they had the valedictorian give her speech and all she did was pat herself on the back. The class president and the asb president gave their speeches and they were typical graduation speeches. One girl that was graduating sang the song "Best Days" with another graduate playing his guitar. It was alright, but I'm not the best person to ask since she wasn't my favorite person. After the song they called up each graduate one at a time to get their diploma covers (they don't get the real diploma until Monday). Each graduate gave our bald principle a black comb as a graduation present. It was funny. They did the turning of the tassel and everybody was all excited. After that they played the graduation slide show and had the fireworks display. We said hello to people we knew at the graduation and friends that were graduates. We came home and went to bed. Yesterday we had a graduation party for my brother and it was so much fun. The invitation said 2-6 (at which point I would have written this), but as you can see the party was a little bit longer. We spent the morning looking for swim suits and cleaning the house. Normal set up stuff. :) The first guests arrived at about 1:30. We had fun, went swimming, normal graduation party activities. My brother, the graduate, left a little early from his own party so he could go to work. :/ That was lame. The party continued and people slowly began to leave. The last guests (who happened to be the first guests to arrive) left at about 11. My aunts who helped set up left at about 11: 30 and I was exhausted so I went to bed. I know that I'm lame for not writing sooner, but after a few days like that what do you expect? We had some fun conversations at the party. You had to be there to hear it though because now they're all inside jokes lol. Got any fun graduation stories? Let me know. :) ttyl <3 Saved Individual

Yes, I'm still alive.

I know that I'm not always on here, but the school blocked the website and I haven't had anything to write about lately. Just counting down to the end of the year. Last week of school, so I should be posting more as I come up with more things to write about. I don't have a job, so it's not like I won't have time. I'll probably be spending that time looking for one, working out, something. Maybe I'll even start studying for honors chem. It all depends on what I have going for me this summer. Currently I have nothing though. Hopefully I'll spend some time with friends. We got our yearbooks and they look AMAZING!!!! Way better than last years anyways. I'm looking for some books to read, so if you have any ideas they would be much appreciated. Same goes for movie titles. 2 1/2 months is a long time to be doing nothing. I found out that I have Child Development ROP all year next year ( I say all year because we're on the block schedule and switch classes half way through the school year ). Any advice on taking care of kids? On the bright side, at least I'll be certified in CPR and stuff like that. :) I'm usually good with kids, but I'm kind of worried about that. I also have history of religions. THAT scares me. That's a lot of religion for one year. I take a ccd class on Sundays and adding five days of religions is insane. Confirmation scares me too though. The more I think about it, the more I feel like I'm not ready for it. I want it, but that's a BIG step. Especially for somebody like me. I'm a very sheltered, very shy girl. I can barely tell people my name. They expect me to be baptized, receive first holy communion, and be confirmed all in the same night on my own free will?! That's craziness. I better go take a nap and work on some English homework. :) I'll write more later. The next post will probably be after I get out of school. I have a lot of studying to do for finals ( I'm in Spanish 3, keyboarding, dance, and Honors English ). I finished the final for dance and got an a in that class, but I'm a little worried about the spanish 3 final. I've had a C+ all semester, so I'm hoping that I can bring that up to a solid B. Adios, amigos lol. <3  Saved Individual

Sex and Drugs

"I'm gonna go where no girls ever been before. I know that you can take me. you, you make my body numb. I want it I need it so bad that I do anything that you want just tell me where to put it if you got it I can do it. Sex and drugs. yup. this is what she loves. yup. I seen her up in the club shakin her f***** stuff. louder then a bomb b****, why you smokin drugs? is it because you really want someone to show you love?" Yes, it is part of an AMAZING song. As you can guess, it's titled Sex and Drugs by Hyper Crush. I was listening to it in first period the other day and it made me think. Why are some people so desperate for said things? It doesn't make sense to me. Yeah, people tell me that it's amazing (I wouldn't know). Is it really worth it though? What if it doesn't work out? What if it was a mistake that you end up regretting for the rest of your life? It's a big responsibility. Not always worth the risk. I do know about risk and regret. Why should guys get to act like animals? Double standard much? It's ridiculous. I should start posting some of my poems on here. It would be a risk and it would be worth it. Even if nobody likes them, I would get an honest opinion of how people see them and how strong I can be. In all honesty, it feels like I'm slowly dying inside. I took a risk, I now regret it, I miss being there though. I do regret it, but I wouldn't go back in time and change what happened. Like they say, "never regret something that once made you smile." Maybe one day we can talk again, but until then we just have to keep moving forward. I need some new books to read. If you have any ideas or a blog you want me to check out, let me know. <3 Saved Individual