A New Beginning

If you look back to the post about everybody wanting the fairytale ending you could probably point out some pretty dark stuff (all subconscious). I am fully going to admit here and now that I have been an "unhappy" person for quite some time now. However, this is a new start for me. It's the best time of my life. I just enjoyed prom with the best guy a girl could ask for, I joined the catholic church, and I am now working on becoming an artist and finding a college that can help make the last of my dreams come true. I know, it sounds like a lot in a short period of time. Trust me, it was crazy so I'm going to take things slowly here for you. First: prom night was amazing. There was drama up until the hour of. It drove all of us crazy. I wore my hair up in a side-pony tail with curls. I had silver heels, huge earrings, and an amazing make-up job. My dress had spaghetti straps, was royal blue, and had huge flowers on it (all decorated in zipper). I got a clutch to match the shoes and everything was perfect. My mom ordered pasta from a local Italian restaurant and we had our own "private catering" (my siblings and cousins) out in front of my house. We took my car to prom (I drove and it was way better than a limo) and I spent the whole night with a complete gentleman. After prom we went back to my house for ice cream and finished the evening at about 1:00 a.m. Second: Easter was even better than prom. No, the guy from prom did not get to attend the church service with me, but it was still a great night. On Saturday, April 23, I went over to church at nine in the morning for a reflection. At about 1:00 in the after noon I went home and started getting ready for my last shift at my first job (I spent the previous two weeks as the Easter Bunny in the mall) and got my picture taken with my whole family. When I got off work I went home, dyed eggs, had dinner, took a nap, then had to get ready for the 4 hour bilingual mass at church. It was a great night. I spent all day worrying that I wouldn't be able to do the full immersion baptism, but Father Francisco helped me get through it lol. after we changed our clothes we did confirmation. I picked Catherine as my confirmation name because she is the patron saint of art and that's where I want to go in life. It was a long decision making process to get the right name. It was between Monica, Margaret, Margaret (yes there were two), Elizabeth, Catherine, Genevieve, Edith, Esther, and Bridget. After confirmation there was our first holy communion. My mom got the whole night on video (which may or may not be a good thing). If you watch the video, you can see the look on my face after communion. Please don't ask about the taste of the Eucharist lol. Third: colleges are not easy to find. I can not find the right one to save my life. I need a school for art, but it has to be close enough that I can still go home on the weekends. I don't really feel like gong to a junior college, but I may have to. Maybe I'll do a few years in the military first. We'll see. This really does feel like a new beginning. Let me know if you have any ideas. I'll be back soon. <3 Saved Individual

My One True Passion

I was thinking earlier and came up with this thought: "If I could give the world one thing, I would give everybody or the world..." and that's as far as I got. I know what I would give the world, but I can't put it into words. I want to give the world passion. I want everybody to experience what I'm feeling right now. I know that I don't always give myself the credit that I deserve and today may or may not be one of those times. In my art class at school, we recently learned how to draw using contour lines (for those of you who don't know, it's one line that creates a picture) without looking. We eventually moved on to looking while we were drawing the contour lines. After about a week of contour lines, we got to pick our best drawing on the newsprint and use a light table to trace it onto white paper. From there, we cut our our picture, outlined every little piece onto various pieces of colored paper, cut out those pieces, then glued them all onto one piece of background paper. I looked at my finished project today and felt as if I could have done a better job. It kind of hurt. Then I got home and showed my mom and siblings a picture of the final project. They loved it! I was blown away and realized that I don't have to be perfect. I just have to be me and try my best. I have learned so much from my art class this semester and I can't wait to see what else I'll learn from this class. It's super exciting to know that I have six classes like this next year. I'm even starting to realize that I DO need certain skills that I'm learning in this class that I wouldn't learn in another art class and I'll need all the tools and resources available to me to be successful. This is my one true passion. Yes, I love reading, writing, and all of the other classic school subjects (for the most part). That doesn't change the fact that I am determined. Determined to succeed, to be creative, to achieve my dreams. I WILL get a job with graphic design, I WILL start my own advertising company, and I WILL be happy with who I am and what I'm doing. This isn't some crazy random thought, this is something that I have had serious thoughts about and what I want to do. What is your one true passion? What are you going to do with your life? It's a lot to think about, but you'll be able to find it. :) I'll be back soon! ~ Saved Individual

First Post of the Year

So it's the start of a new year and I'm deciding to make a new me. Decided to change everything about my life. Maybe be a little more outgoing, try to eat healthier, make new friends that I never would have thought about having a few years ago. It'll be good for all involved. Yes, I miss how I used to be, but isn't that what life is about? Growing up, changing, becoming a better person? We all should have New Year's Resolutions still. Most people have given up already and it's really lame. I'm starting to notice that even though things can get hard, it's not the end of the world. He has a plan for everyone and we each have to just keep going with it. Recently, I've started learning not to be so judgmental. Just because you've known people like somebody you see, doesn't mean that they'll act the same way. Just because you've created your own stereotypes about groups of people, doesn't mean that all of them are that way. Try to be friends with somebody new today. You never know what you're missing out on. Give them a chance. They deserve it just as much as you do. Good luck. Wish me luck too. I'm going to need it with what I'm up to lately. :) <3 Saved Individual

1000 Things To Do Before I'm Saved

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. These thoughts aren't exactly relevant to anything I've been writing about lately, but they are giving me a new view on life. I clearly remember the plane ride home from the class trip to New York/ Washington D.C. and they happened to be playing the movie The Bucket List. These two old guys fighting about everything and wanting to do all these crazy things before they die. In the end they do it too. Really good movie if you're in a "stay home in my jammies" kind of mood one Saturday night. Anyways, in my first period ROP class I keep hearing about this trip to Costa Rica. They're our rival high school so the other ROP students and I decided to put together a trip to Spain for our school. I looked up some places to see in Spain and found a lot of cool places like Toledo. I started thinking about this trip and how I'm so excited for it. Then it clicked. What if something happens and I don't get to do all of the things I want to do before I die? I don't want to die and I'm not planning my death, funeral, will, or anything else yet. I just think it might be a good idea to have a bucket list. Like a 1000 things to do before Saved knows what it's like to be "saved" kind of thing. We're still young. We can still "do it all" and have time left over for things life throws at us. I'm starting my list right now. Here's the first ten things to do (please note that these are for high school students, not seriously focused adults): 1.) Crash an opposing high school's dance 2.) Sneak "toys" into graduation 3.) Throw a graduation party for your 10 closest friens (they each get to bring 2, they each get to bring 2, etc., etc.) 4.) Be accepted into the college of your dreams 5.) Study abroad, even if it's only for a semester 6.) Learn a valuable lessson from a stranger 7.) Have a weekend long movie marathon with your best friends 8.) Watch the sun set and rise on a school night/morning 9.) Have fun doing something you love in public (and don't care what others think) 10.) Hit on as many people as possible in one day (see how many dates you get) Have fun with these ten. I'll post another ten asap. Comment me your ideas for the list. <3 Saved Individual

La clase de Espanol 4/ linguaje nativo Ap

Si me gusta mi clase de espanol cuatro linguaje nativo ap. Yo soy un estudiante muy lista. I estoy... mal. No sabe escribir en espanol sin un diccionario. Mi maestro de la clase de espanol dice escribir un poco en espanol todos los noches. Quiero ir a Espana esta vierno. Necesito un trabajo pagar. No tengo dinero. Me gusta mis amigos. Ellos son muy simpatico. Ellos no saben espanol. :/ Necesito un tutor para la clase de espanol. No me gusta escribir sin un diccionario porque no sabe las palabras usar. Well, that's all I have for my spanish teacher. Basically, the above stuff says that I like my spanish class. It's Spanish 4/ native language AP. I'm very smart, I feel bad, I don't like to write in spanish without a dictionary because I don't know the right words to use. I want to go to Spain this summer. I like my friends, I need money for the trip. It also says that my friends are nice, but they don't speak spanish and I need a tutor. It's kind of random stuff. I'm not doing so well in spanish right now (it is ap and I know very little Spanish, which I proved above). I go to tutoring once a week right now, but it might be easier if I got a different tutor or went more often with somebody that was more accessable. Anyway, my spanish teacher wants me to do this once a week tutoring and write a little bit in spanish every night. It's supposed to increase my vocabulary and improve my sentance structres in Spanish. I don't see it, but maybe he's right. I feel pretty accomplished because I have a passing grade. He only speaks to the class in Spanish and I'm the only non-native speaker in that class. My goal is to get a "B" and pass the stupid Ap test at the end of the year. That shouldn't be too hard, right? It just means I need to work a little harder than the other students. Well, that's all I have for my readers tonight. I'll post more soon. Good night. <3 Saved Individual

Peace and Quiet

It's been a while and I apologize. I've been a little busy with things like school, job searching, football games, etc. It's been a lot of work, but totally worth it. When you live a life like mine things get crazy sometimes. It gives you a second of excitement and pressure. It's not fun for that one second, but then you look back and it was actually fun having that one second of feeling like screaming. Anyway, I've been doing a lot lately and it's really exciting. I've made a few new friends this year already and I can't wait to see what other friends I'm going to make this year and next year. I went to the first home football game of the year. It was RVHS vs. Sutter so there was a lot of rivalry. I actually went with a few RV friends and one from Sutter. It was fun to make jokes with them and sit on the RV side. :) We went to the before school rally that day and went crazy making jokes about everything. I registered for the ccd class a few weeks ago and I went to the first official class this morning. It was not the way I remembered it... Oh well. It was still great and I love going. I ran into a mom that I met through VBS and she was excited to see me. I gave her my number and she was really happy that I volunteered to babysit for her. :) The past few months I've been doing a lot of job searching and things are finally starting to turn around for me there. For once, it's actually quiet in my house. It's kind of awkward lol. I'm not used to it being so quiet. I really like that it's silent sometimes, but right now I'm too excited about life and youth group later tonight. I need the music blaring and the windows closed so I can just rock out by myself. It's so... freeing. Forms of self expression are the best way to relieve stress. I was looking at earlier posts in my blog and see how I used to write. I miss that, but  as I grow and change, my writing must also change. I have a lot of reflecting and homework to do. I'll post again soon. <3 Saved Individual

Rules of the Road

As most of us here know, I got my license a little under a month ago. Go ahead and make your jokes about the roads being unsafe now, but I'm actually a really good driver (for just getting my license anyways). Normally, I don't care how you drive as long as you can get me from point a to point be then back home safely. However, lately I've discovered that a lot of drivers aren't as good as you might think they are. Really it's people in general doing the right thing, but it's more about following the rules of the road for me today. For example, today I drove over to my ROP class for first period. The light was green, but the crosswalk sign changed at the same time so I couldn't go because pedestrians have the right of way. I figured I would just wait until the time ran out or I would turn right on a red because that's legal if traffic is clear. Well the light was still green and the time had run out, but three students decided to use the cross walk anyways. If you didn't catch that, these high school students are crossing illegally and I totally had the right of way (unfortunately, you can't enter a cross walk when there are pedestrians in it). Anyways, on my way back to school there was this truck heading to the same parking lot I was. I was doing exactly the speed limit and somehow, the guy managed to pass me. I don't mind that he passed me. He should have been doing the speed limit though (not ten over). On my way home from school there was a lot of traffic near the exit I use. Nothing new, but still frustrating at times. Some lady (probably a freshman's mom) was trying to switch lanes (she didn't signal or have room to fit into the spot. The kind lady blamed me and let me see her bird if you know what I mean. I decided to take the high road by changing lanes (I was going to anyways), smiling at her, and waving. I think I'm done complaining for the night. I'll post again when I find out if I get to go to Shady Creek. Good night. Comment if you have any other driving dos and don'ts. <3 Saved Individual