Lo siento, amigo

It translates into "I'm sorry friend." (yes, that is about all I've learned in the three spanish classes I've taken.) I'm sorry that I haven't blogged in a LONG time, but I've been busy with school, track, and other activities. I'm driving myself insane. ;) I eneded last quarter with a 3.75 (weighted it's a 4.0), joined the track team, and found a few more extra things to do. I went to the cheer meeting to learn more about try-outs in April and decided to run for junior class president. I'm looking forward to the vacation bible school meeting this Friday night and the skating party the day after. It's spirit week at school so everybody is looking forward to the minimum day tomorrow and the ralley on Friday. This week's spirit theme is boys vs. girls. GIRLS WILL SOOOOO WIN!!!!!! :) JKJKJKJK Idk yet, but they got some teachers to perform their own dance after the fourth period dance class has their "dance off" at the ralley (which this "dance off" is one option for the final, my final for dance is teaching the class a dance in three days [such as a line dance or something] that adds up to a total of 100 points). If you have any ideas for the dance final or my campaign, let me know. :) It's greatly appreciated. I'm thinking I'll do a "blast from the past: returning to retro dance" theme for the final and a "It's a small school" theme for the campaign. My own twist on the "it's a small world" ride from Disney, to bring the Junior class together to do what's best for us. Let me know what you think and I really do need all the help I can get for this campaign. Thank you in advance. :) This just shows that ANYBODY can try something new. ;)

Society then and now

Yes, as the human race we have come a long way. We've gone from wearing bonnets and dresses that cover our feet, to "booty shorts" and "tank tops". We have more technology, resources, and knowledge now. A lot has changed just in the past thirty years. However, one thing remains the same. We all want to fit in. We want to please others. We're constantly being told who we should be and comparing ourselves to others. It isn't fair to anybody. Sometimes, we need to take a step back and look at how small the cross we have to carry really is. Instead of thinking, "I should do... to be perfect in the eyes of others." we should think, "I should do... to be a better person because I want to." It makes a world of difference. Society and the media will always work together to make people feel bad about themselves, but it's not a competition. You have to love yourself before you can love somebody else. Yes, we all have flaws. Yes, we can accept those flaws and call it perfection. If you don't see it as a flaw, is it really a flaw? NO! It makes you human and it makes you who you are. Love the "flaws" and others will admire you for not caring what others think. If you're "living in the shadow" of somebody that you look up to, you won't be there for long. Just find what makes you who you are and that should be enough for anybody worth getting to know better. You won't always be where you are now. The Middle by Jimmy Eat World is the perfect song to describe what I'm saying. Don't care what others think, try anything and everything, don't buy into the "ideal look", people will always talk, things will get better. :)

Rules

Yes, rules are important and need to be followed to keep society going. However, there is a line. The school has a policy that says personal websites (such as this) are not to be used on school computers. It's rediculous if you ask me. I as a student, should have the right to blog during my frist period class if I have all of my work done. I'm a good student and try hard in everything I do. Should I be punished for my hard work? Personally, I don't think it's fair. Yes, there are rules that should not be altered for special cases. I just think that it's lame for such a positive influence in my life to be banned by the school. Don't worry if I don't post as often anymore. I'm just busy during the day and can't post during first anymore. Good night! :)

Influence

You know those dumb commercials about how pirating videos is wrong and drugs are bad. Is that really stopping anybody from doing it anyway? No. Let's be realistic about this. Peer pressure is huge in the lives of teens all over the world. We want to please everybody, but if we hang out with the wring people it's impossible. Some days we're hanging out with our true friends and we'll see the people we always wanted to fit in with. They don't notice you, don't say hello. It's like you're invisible. That feeling is never a fun one, but sometimes it's what you need to keep you going. Taylor Swift's song invisible says, "I just want to show you, she don't even know you, she's never gonna love you like I want to, and you just see right through me, but if you only knew me, we could be a beautiful miracle, unbelieveable, instead of just invisible." If you're a good person, everybody wants to be your friend. They just need to see the real you first. If you're too quiet, life passes you by and you never get the chance to be the person you always wanted to be. You don't meet the right people, you don't get anywhere in life. What I really learned though, is that everybody feels invisible sometimes.  It's not a good feeling, but even the popular kids feel it. To me, that's a sign saying "Everything is going to be ok in the end. This isn't going to make or break you. Just do this now and there will be something better waiting for you around the corner." I may not be the best at spanish, but I do know that when somebody says "Nosotrors necisitamos vivir la vida loca." It means "We need to live a crazy life." Let's live like that and have some fun. ;)

Just another day

Just another day in life. Nothing new to discuss, no huge realization. It's just another beautiful day. I was thinking this morning though, and I noticed how much trouble some girls go through just to get the attention of some boy. It's rediculous how much emphasis society puts on "beauty". Who says that just becuase you're not size zero with perfect skin, that you're not pretty? Who decides what pretty is? Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. If you think that you're pretty, then you are. You don't need the approval of others. Yes, it's important to make a good impression on people, but at what cost? There are so many different diet pills, surgeries, etc. that make us think that there is something wrong with who we are as people. Hypothetically: if you get work done (let's say it's a nose) and you have a little girl that doesn't like her nose (the one you used to have). Do you tell her that her nose is perfect and she's beautiful the way she is? What if she finds out that you had your nose fixed? You can't be hypocritical with your children. It's sending them the wrong message. Children have to learn some things on their own and you can't always be there for them. That doesn't mean that you have to stay out of their lives. Children ask for a lot of stuff sometimes, but at the end of they day they know that you're doing everything you can to give them a good life. They don't need all the fancy stuff, if they know that you love them. Try telling them more often and explaining this to them next time they're asking for some new toy or crying because they don't get their way. It might help. ;)

True meanings

What is being fake? Is it not being yourself? Is it lying? Is it telling your daughter time and time again that you're going to be there for her and not showing up? Or is it just not loving your own kids? I'm done with him. How dare he say that I'm fake, when I'm always honest with him! I try to do what I can and be nice to him, but after so long of being lied to and disappointed you can only expect the worst from somebody. He may not have any authority in my life anymore, but he still plays a huge part. I've been told that this isn't true, but in my mind I hear, "He left us, he didn't want us, he doesn't love us." In my mind, every time he calls is like a little reminder. For days after that five minute phone call I think, "Why doesn't he love me? What happened to make him want to leave?" It may not be true in his mind or in reality, but that's what things like that do to a person. You question, you have doubts, you want to know what you could have done that would have made him want to stick around a little longer. He has put too things in the way of my happiness. Slowly, I've grown up because of him. I still have a long way to go though. If he can't love me enough to be in my life, then my mom can and I can love myself enough for both of us. It's funny. Not even a week ago I wanted to stop writing in my blog. Now, I can't stop writing and I like how getting stuff out in the open makes me feel. He can say whatever he wants to because it doesn't make or break me. "Love me or hate me, either way you're still thinking about me."-unknown

Back to the Future

This is a movie from 1985, where this teen accidentally goes back in time and keeps his parents from meeting. There is a lot of sentimental value to the movie and a lot of life lessons for teens to learn from it. However, if that was in 1985, where is the time machine now? We're in the year 2010 and technology has come a long way since our parents were kids. Just think about it. In the year 1938, child labor laws had just been passed for America. Students haven't always been as lucky as the students of today. Not long ago, kids didn't need cell phones, televisions, ipods, or computers. Everything was sentimental. Hand written notes, phone calls instead of texting, waiting to hear your favorite song on the radio or buying a record instead of downloading it onto your computer. What happened to the personal touch of life? Why can't we still be sincere in what we say and do, without losing the technology? We are humans and we do have flaws, but I believe that we could find a way to have both. Let's try turning off all electronics for an hour, just to see what happens. Instead of texting friends, try having a conversation with somebody in your house. It doesn't have to be some big discussion. Just a little bit of time to create memories, share memories, love the family that you've been given. I feel blessed to have such wonderful technology in my life and eveybody else should too. Not everybody has internet access at home, or a cell phone to text with. Some kids still have to use the house phone and do things that don't require technology. Answere me this: who is stronger when it comes to religion? Those who have everything that they could ever want, or those who are barely getting by? The correct answer is those just getting through this life. The people that seem to have it all really don't. They chase after material things because they have a God shaped hole in their heart and don't know how to fill it. Those that are trying to get through this economic downfall, they trust that the Lord will help them get through it unharmed and have filled the hole. Which will you chose today? Technology or family? Are you barely getting through or are you chasing material things? Think about this today and everyday. On Saturday I went to a church retreat for my ccd class and there was a lecture on gangs. We learned that you can do wrong now, but it's never too late to change. Let's be the people we want to be today, so that if tomorrow doesn't come we can say that we were true to what we believe and who we are. Good luck in whoever you choose to be and all that you do. You know what  the right thing to do for you is.