So, I've been pretty lame about updating since senior year started. I know. :/ It's not as easy as I thought. I've just been super busy with school, work, college prep, etc. Now that things are starting to slow down a little bit and I'm getting home earlier, I thought it would be nice to come back and update a little bit. So far I've made a ton of new friends, done a lot of working, and even tried a few new things. :) I'm currently learning how to make my own web sites and loving my AP English class. A lot of my assignments are online (except for English, but we usually get information about the assignment in an e-mail or have to write a blog entry for this site!). In English we just did a timed write last week and I was really excited because I got 75/70 on it! :D Yes, those numbers are correct and in the right order. Today I got to fix a picture in photoshop for one of my cousins. It is the cutest thing ever! I have officially decided that I may not want to go to a four year college right after high school. While it would be nice, I may want to go to a junior college, study abroad (which may be an option thanks to Rotary and Interact club), or take some time and figure life out. I'll be sure to keep busy and post about whatever I decide to do, but for right now I'm going to place applications to the schools that interest me and hope that I know what I'm going to do before I sign up to do anything. Anybody with true life experience, please let me know about some of the troubles you faced with post-high school plans. I'd love to hear about what happened and learn from those decisions. :) Thanks! Lots of love, Saved Individual

Things Change

I was looking back at some of my previous posts and realized that my life has changed a lot. I feel totally conflicted. I want everything to stay the same, but at the same time I want everything to change. I want to graduate, but I want to stay in high school. The more I want things to change, the more they stay the same (and vice versa). I feel like I finally turned everything around and figured it all out, but every time I figure something out I learn that there's still more to learn. I'm writing an essay for my English class. It's about the book "Handle With Care". We're supposed to write something about some moment when we finally realize what the story is supposed to be about. Kind of like a "find the hidden picture" puzzle. For those of you who haven't had the chance to read the book it's about a girl born with this rare disease where your bones break really easily. Her mother files a lawsuite saying she wishes her daughter had never been born and the person she sues just happens to be her best friend. The whole family is totally out of wack, but you can really see the love there. It's a great story. I recently wrote an essay about it, but didn't do so well. :/ Oh well! :) I'm ok with it. I still highly recommend the book to anybody willing to read. Next up, Senior year. I plan on documenting all of it. I started my senior year one week ago now. I started off with some pretty awesome classes, but after switching out of one of them, I found out that my classes are now FREAKING AMAZING!!!!!! I love it. there was a school dance last night too. It started out being pretty lame, but ended up being a great night. I'll have more to come next weekend. Lots of love, Saved Individual

A New Beginning

If you look back to the post about everybody wanting the fairytale ending you could probably point out some pretty dark stuff (all subconscious). I am fully going to admit here and now that I have been an "unhappy" person for quite some time now. However, this is a new start for me. It's the best time of my life. I just enjoyed prom with the best guy a girl could ask for, I joined the catholic church, and I am now working on becoming an artist and finding a college that can help make the last of my dreams come true. I know, it sounds like a lot in a short period of time. Trust me, it was crazy so I'm going to take things slowly here for you. First: prom night was amazing. There was drama up until the hour of. It drove all of us crazy. I wore my hair up in a side-pony tail with curls. I had silver heels, huge earrings, and an amazing make-up job. My dress had spaghetti straps, was royal blue, and had huge flowers on it (all decorated in zipper). I got a clutch to match the shoes and everything was perfect. My mom ordered pasta from a local Italian restaurant and we had our own "private catering" (my siblings and cousins) out in front of my house. We took my car to prom (I drove and it was way better than a limo) and I spent the whole night with a complete gentleman. After prom we went back to my house for ice cream and finished the evening at about 1:00 a.m. Second: Easter was even better than prom. No, the guy from prom did not get to attend the church service with me, but it was still a great night. On Saturday, April 23, I went over to church at nine in the morning for a reflection. At about 1:00 in the after noon I went home and started getting ready for my last shift at my first job (I spent the previous two weeks as the Easter Bunny in the mall) and got my picture taken with my whole family. When I got off work I went home, dyed eggs, had dinner, took a nap, then had to get ready for the 4 hour bilingual mass at church. It was a great night. I spent all day worrying that I wouldn't be able to do the full immersion baptism, but Father Francisco helped me get through it lol. after we changed our clothes we did confirmation. I picked Catherine as my confirmation name because she is the patron saint of art and that's where I want to go in life. It was a long decision making process to get the right name. It was between Monica, Margaret, Margaret (yes there were two), Elizabeth, Catherine, Genevieve, Edith, Esther, and Bridget. After confirmation there was our first holy communion. My mom got the whole night on video (which may or may not be a good thing). If you watch the video, you can see the look on my face after communion. Please don't ask about the taste of the Eucharist lol. Third: colleges are not easy to find. I can not find the right one to save my life. I need a school for art, but it has to be close enough that I can still go home on the weekends. I don't really feel like gong to a junior college, but I may have to. Maybe I'll do a few years in the military first. We'll see. This really does feel like a new beginning. Let me know if you have any ideas. I'll be back soon. <3 Saved Individual

My One True Passion

I was thinking earlier and came up with this thought: "If I could give the world one thing, I would give everybody or the world..." and that's as far as I got. I know what I would give the world, but I can't put it into words. I want to give the world passion. I want everybody to experience what I'm feeling right now. I know that I don't always give myself the credit that I deserve and today may or may not be one of those times. In my art class at school, we recently learned how to draw using contour lines (for those of you who don't know, it's one line that creates a picture) without looking. We eventually moved on to looking while we were drawing the contour lines. After about a week of contour lines, we got to pick our best drawing on the newsprint and use a light table to trace it onto white paper. From there, we cut our our picture, outlined every little piece onto various pieces of colored paper, cut out those pieces, then glued them all onto one piece of background paper. I looked at my finished project today and felt as if I could have done a better job. It kind of hurt. Then I got home and showed my mom and siblings a picture of the final project. They loved it! I was blown away and realized that I don't have to be perfect. I just have to be me and try my best. I have learned so much from my art class this semester and I can't wait to see what else I'll learn from this class. It's super exciting to know that I have six classes like this next year. I'm even starting to realize that I DO need certain skills that I'm learning in this class that I wouldn't learn in another art class and I'll need all the tools and resources available to me to be successful. This is my one true passion. Yes, I love reading, writing, and all of the other classic school subjects (for the most part). That doesn't change the fact that I am determined. Determined to succeed, to be creative, to achieve my dreams. I WILL get a job with graphic design, I WILL start my own advertising company, and I WILL be happy with who I am and what I'm doing. This isn't some crazy random thought, this is something that I have had serious thoughts about and what I want to do. What is your one true passion? What are you going to do with your life? It's a lot to think about, but you'll be able to find it. :) I'll be back soon! ~ Saved Individual

First Post of the Year

So it's the start of a new year and I'm deciding to make a new me. Decided to change everything about my life. Maybe be a little more outgoing, try to eat healthier, make new friends that I never would have thought about having a few years ago. It'll be good for all involved. Yes, I miss how I used to be, but isn't that what life is about? Growing up, changing, becoming a better person? We all should have New Year's Resolutions still. Most people have given up already and it's really lame. I'm starting to notice that even though things can get hard, it's not the end of the world. He has a plan for everyone and we each have to just keep going with it. Recently, I've started learning not to be so judgmental. Just because you've known people like somebody you see, doesn't mean that they'll act the same way. Just because you've created your own stereotypes about groups of people, doesn't mean that all of them are that way. Try to be friends with somebody new today. You never know what you're missing out on. Give them a chance. They deserve it just as much as you do. Good luck. Wish me luck too. I'm going to need it with what I'm up to lately. :) <3 Saved Individual