Yes, I'm still alive.

I know that I'm not always on here, but the school blocked the website and I haven't had anything to write about lately. Just counting down to the end of the year. Last week of school, so I should be posting more as I come up with more things to write about. I don't have a job, so it's not like I won't have time. I'll probably be spending that time looking for one, working out, something. Maybe I'll even start studying for honors chem. It all depends on what I have going for me this summer. Currently I have nothing though. Hopefully I'll spend some time with friends. We got our yearbooks and they look AMAZING!!!! Way better than last years anyways. I'm looking for some books to read, so if you have any ideas they would be much appreciated. Same goes for movie titles. 2 1/2 months is a long time to be doing nothing. I found out that I have Child Development ROP all year next year ( I say all year because we're on the block schedule and switch classes half way through the school year ). Any advice on taking care of kids? On the bright side, at least I'll be certified in CPR and stuff like that. :) I'm usually good with kids, but I'm kind of worried about that. I also have history of religions. THAT scares me. That's a lot of religion for one year. I take a ccd class on Sundays and adding five days of religions is insane. Confirmation scares me too though. The more I think about it, the more I feel like I'm not ready for it. I want it, but that's a BIG step. Especially for somebody like me. I'm a very sheltered, very shy girl. I can barely tell people my name. They expect me to be baptized, receive first holy communion, and be confirmed all in the same night on my own free will?! That's craziness. I better go take a nap and work on some English homework. :) I'll write more later. The next post will probably be after I get out of school. I have a lot of studying to do for finals ( I'm in Spanish 3, keyboarding, dance, and Honors English ). I finished the final for dance and got an a in that class, but I'm a little worried about the spanish 3 final. I've had a C+ all semester, so I'm hoping that I can bring that up to a solid B. Adios, amigos lol. <3  Saved Individual

Sex and Drugs

"I'm gonna go where no girls ever been before. I know that you can take me. you, you make my body numb. I want it I need it so bad that I do anything that you want just tell me where to put it if you got it I can do it. Sex and drugs. yup. this is what she loves. yup. I seen her up in the club shakin her f***** stuff. louder then a bomb b****, why you smokin drugs? is it because you really want someone to show you love?" Yes, it is part of an AMAZING song. As you can guess, it's titled Sex and Drugs by Hyper Crush. I was listening to it in first period the other day and it made me think. Why are some people so desperate for said things? It doesn't make sense to me. Yeah, people tell me that it's amazing (I wouldn't know). Is it really worth it though? What if it doesn't work out? What if it was a mistake that you end up regretting for the rest of your life? It's a big responsibility. Not always worth the risk. I do know about risk and regret. Why should guys get to act like animals? Double standard much? It's ridiculous. I should start posting some of my poems on here. It would be a risk and it would be worth it. Even if nobody likes them, I would get an honest opinion of how people see them and how strong I can be. In all honesty, it feels like I'm slowly dying inside. I took a risk, I now regret it, I miss being there though. I do regret it, but I wouldn't go back in time and change what happened. Like they say, "never regret something that once made you smile." Maybe one day we can talk again, but until then we just have to keep moving forward. I need some new books to read. If you have any ideas or a blog you want me to check out, let me know. <3 Saved Individual

FML?

You know that situation when you feel like you get the short end of the stick no matter what you do? SUCKS!!!!!! What are you supposed to do at that point? The answer: DON'T GIVE UP!!!!!! You simply keep trying and find a way to make as many people happy as possible. Just make sure that you're one of them. Become "Lost in Stereo" like the song lol. :) The lyrics are obviously online and can be found at the website listed at the end of this post. I was actually on a website this morning. It's almost like twitter, but you just complain about stupid stuff that happened to you. It's fmylife.com and you go read peoples posts then vote on if their lives suck or not. It gets pretty interesting sometimes. This world is filled with creepers and  weirdos. Most of the fmls are fake, but still very entertaining to read. Most people make jokes about the stupid ones. It's great. You should check it out. My mom's been thinking about getting a dog for months now and if we MUST get a dog, I want a Yorkie. They're so cute and cuddly. Not a big fan of dogs, but I'll make an exception. Track season is over for me and I have a job interview tomorrow at 5:30. I can't wait. I'm so excited and I think I really could have a chance at getting this job. My references were amazing, I had a ton of work experience to put down, and the older lady that was working there was very nice and probably put in a good word or two for me. :) If I do get the job, it'll probably only be for the summer because it's at the pool. :/ It'll still be worth it and it'll give me a better chance of being hired again next summer and other places that I choose to apply at. Today has been a good day so far and should continue to be. I got up early, started some homework (not that I have much to do there), did two loads of laundry, and still have time to do whatever. I'm being productive today. I should probably start being more organized though. I can't remember anything anymore. I think it's just because I've been busy. Once things are back to normal I'll probably be back to remembering important things that I need to do. I miss my friends. They're great. They know me better than I know myself and no matter what I say or do, they blame men. These boys may be crazy, but they think of me like a little sister and only want what's best for me. Sounds like a few other people I know *cough* Buttons *cough* lol. I should probably get back to my fairly productive day, so I'm going to wrap this up. Seems a little random today, but who cares? It's my blog and if you don't like what it says or how it's written, don't read it. Simple as that. I'll try to post again soon. I'll keep everybody on here updated on how summer plans, job searching, and vbs are going. Leave me some love and tell your friends about my blog. :) They might actually enjoy it. You never know.
<3 Saved Individual

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Random? Nah ;)

You know that moment when you're just coming back from a daydream? Where you realize that you've been staring at the kid next to you for like ten minutes and they think you're a creeper? That one little moment when you know you'll regret not paying attention tomorrow, but you want to get back to what you were thinking about instead? Yeah, I've been there all day. Luckily it was a minimum day and I didn't miss much. Déjà vu is a noun that means "the illusion of having already experienced something actually being experienced for the first time". It's quite an interesting topic, but not what I want to talk about today. I've been talking to this guy lately and he drives me crazy. It's PERFECT!! The daydream I had all day? It was about him. ;) I get to see him for the first time in a month tomorrow. :D The day dream was about how things are going to go when we see each other. I know how I want it to go and I think he would want it to be the same way. I can't wait. You know that feeling you get when you're in a great mood and your favorite song happens to come on the radio or your ipod (on shuffle)? That moment when you realize that you're excited about something and a song that totally describes your mood or situation starts playing? Yeah, I've been there before too. I love the thought that somebody out there is looking out for you. Maybe it's a guardian angle or just a loving parent. The beauty of it is, you don't know. You just have to have faith. I know that this whole post seems kind of random, but in my mind it all fits together. Life is a mystery. You can try to solve it before you get to the end, or you can just enjoy it. I choose to enjoy the story and just go along for the ride. I know that the mistakes I make won't matter in the future and no matter what happens or who I talk to, I'll always have friends and family that loves and cares about me. Things happen for a reason and we don't know what they are. We can wonder why and try to figure it out, or just accept it. Either way, it's your life and you can live it the way you want to. The way I see it, if something doesn't work out the way you want it to there's something better right around the corner. I'm about to update my about me, so if you want to know more about my ideas let me know and read that. :) I actually need some more topics to write about. Any ideas?

If you're Over Us, Lie Until the End of Time

I'm really sick of all this stupid high school stuff. I know that some adults think that we're just stupid kids that freak over EVERYTHING, but that's not always the case. This time it kind of is, but I'm sick of all the lies, drama, and heartache. Yesterday, I found out that a girl was talking bad about my best friend (Yes, I did hear her saying it. It's not just "he said she said" stuff). Obviously I stood up for him. Today when I told him that he might want to stay away from her because of what happened (just saying "I think it would be in your best interest if you stayed away from her" kind of thing, not the drama starting "oh she said... about you”) all I got from him was a lame, automatic response and then the silent treatment. For what, I'm not sure and in all honesty, I don't really care anymore. Whatever happened to "High School: The Best Four Years of Your Life"? High school's almost half over for me and I'm really doubting that this will be what I look back on saying, "Man, I wish I could go back to the time that my friends and I...” To tell the truth, it'll probably be something more like, "You know, I remember the time that my friends and I... Oh wait; I didn't do anything with them because they weren't really my friends.” I've gone to a few dances, I've watched a football game or two with "friends", and I've even considered doing some stupid stuff because it sounded like a good idea at the time. Now that it's clear who my real friends are and where the rumors about me are coming from, I know what I've done with my life and where I'm heading. They say that there is an end in friend, an over in lover, a lie in believe, an us in trust, and an if in life. I beLIEve that in lIFe an ex lOVER can not be trUSted to be a friEND. That's not true, but you see where I'm going with this. That's what high school is about. It's making mistakes, having fun, learning things the hard way, and creating memories and stories that you'll look back on with a smile because that's what made you who you are today. In my case, however, is it really worth it? I think that maybe I would be better off at a different school. I would even consider home schooling. Yes, it means missing prom, Wood leaf counseling, and graduation, as well as football games, friends, etc. Would that be better for me than staying here and being miserable because my "friends" are starting drama? It's hard to say, but I'm thinking it might be. I guess I'll just have to take life as it comes and hope for the best.

Career Options

So I've been thinking a lot lately. Mainly about how my life is turning out and where I'm heading. One thing that has come up the most is friendship. Has anybody ever noticed that the word "end" is in the word "friend"? NOT COOL!!!! Just realizing that a lot of my friendships are getting messed up lately. Oh well, back to my future. We did the career searching thing at school a while back and they gave me some crazy options like "sociologist" and "abuse/crisis counselor". They gave me a few good ones like "teacher" and "Marketing Specialist". I actually got "clergy" as one career that I would be well suited for. Obviously I went through the "When I grow up I want to be a..." phase many times. We've gone through princess, teacher, artist, president, photographer, entrepreneur, stay at home mom, director, writer, poet, musician, actress, singer, etc. Yeah, I've done a lot of thinking. Most recently I've been thinking about becoming a Marketing Specialist. It's kind of like the person that makes the advertisements for different companies. I really want to do that, but I'm not sure. With all of the drama that's been going on with high school I'm thinking about  going back to becoming a writer or poet. I have the experiences to write about. It'll be fun to look back in ten years and say "Remember the time that we...?" or "I remember the time that...". It'll be fun either way. If you hear about any other career choices that I would be qualified for let me know.

Spanish 3 report

La historia de la música y el baile español es muy larga e interesante. Algunos de los tipos más conocidos son la salsa, el tango y el flamenco. Algunos que no son tan conocidos son la bossa nova, tejano, Ye Ye y la jota. la música latina es única porque es una combinación de diferentes sonidos de diferentes países. estilos de música española reliquia de Polyrhythms fuertemente en África. Salsa aparece en muchas de Cuba y Puerto Rico comunidades. Salsa es de rhythems africanas y españolas latidos. Es popular en la mayoría de los clubes de hoy porque es el paso rápido y tiene un espacio mínimo que hacer. El tango es música bastante clásica. Por lo general se toca con violines, contrabajo y piano. De vez en cuando juega con flautas y clarinetes, el tango es ampliamente conocido por su estilo dramático. Algunos de los más populares artistas pop español habla de hoy son Shakira, Ricky Martin, y algunos otros. Hay áreas canciones como Livin 'La Vida que se realizan en español. Una de las artistas más famosas de la década de 1970 y el 1980 en la categoría de Pop español es Enrique y Ana. Cantaron canciones para niños y eran muy populares. Hicieron una película en 1981 titulada Aventuras de Enrique Lad y Ana. Algunos de sus mejores canciones conocidas hoy son La Canción de Los Planetas, Baila Con El Hula Hoop, Alibombo, y Super Disco Chino.

Mexico y Espana!!!!!

Actually, it's all Spanish speaking countries. In Spanish 3 we are doing presentations. We split up into six groups of four and one group of two (guess who got stuck in the group of two). My group (or should I say partner and I) decided to do our presentation on music and dances from various Spanish speaking countries. Luckily, I have dance fourth period and all year we've been learning things like Meringue, Salsa, Tango, Rumba, etc. and most of them have come from Spanish speaking countries. Mainly Spain and Cuba. Now I have to write a short little summary of the history of the music and dances in Spanish then work on putting a poster together. It's going to be crazy since we got the assignment Friday and it's due Wednesday. I probably should have worked something out with my partner on Friday, but oh well. We'll put something together. Any ideas on where I can get some supplies for the poster and information for the report? It would be greatly appreciated. Just let me know. It doesn't have to be a long presentation, just a decent length. I can't wait to show everybody what I can do. They'll be so jealous and mad that I didn't work with them. HAHAHA!!!! I'll win. :) Anyway, church was fun today. I love it when "The big enchilada" (as he likes to refer to himself) makes catholic jokes in church. It was funny. You had to have been there. Just an update for those of you that I don't talk to regularly, I made a friend from Natomas. We had a stormy patch there for a while, but we're better now. Looking forward to VBS and school work is going well. I still have a lot to do and a  lot of stuff to work on before summer, but I can't wait. My mom and I are going carb free for a month. It sounds hard, but it'll be good for us and I'm actually looking forward to that to. Just finished a week of testing and have two more tests to take this week. I guess this is what it's like to grow up. Just enjoy life as it comes and don't sweat the small stuff. Everything will work out in the end. :)

Fame and Fortune

Is it really worth it? Nobody is ever really "down to earth" after they get it. Some of the larger, more popular bands are just lying when they say that they love their fans and would be nowhere without them. It's ridiculous. Hyper Crush (small band that has gone nowhere yet) really is still down to earth. My brother met them a while back and got them to actually sign a poster for him. It's in his room right now. Hyper Crush is kind of the 80's techno music, but it's really cool. They just released a new single called "Keep Up" and it's amazing. They're really fun and for the guys, Holly is pretty cute. You might want to give them a try if you're in a good mood or looking for something to give you a little "pick me up". You'll love them. Other than that, there isn't much going on. I was going to write some controversial essay, but changed my mind when I started listening to Keep up and got an e-mail. The  e-mail made me a little sad, but oh well. It worked out this way for a reason. Next year (assuming that I do it this year and the year after)! I'll be ready for the job when the world is ready for me. :)