Lo siento, amigo

It translates into "I'm sorry friend." (yes, that is about all I've learned in the three spanish classes I've taken.) I'm sorry that I haven't blogged in a LONG time, but I've been busy with school, track, and other activities. I'm driving myself insane. ;) I eneded last quarter with a 3.75 (weighted it's a 4.0), joined the track team, and found a few more extra things to do. I went to the cheer meeting to learn more about try-outs in April and decided to run for junior class president. I'm looking forward to the vacation bible school meeting this Friday night and the skating party the day after. It's spirit week at school so everybody is looking forward to the minimum day tomorrow and the ralley on Friday. This week's spirit theme is boys vs. girls. GIRLS WILL SOOOOO WIN!!!!!! :) JKJKJKJK Idk yet, but they got some teachers to perform their own dance after the fourth period dance class has their "dance off" at the ralley (which this "dance off" is one option for the final, my final for dance is teaching the class a dance in three days [such as a line dance or something] that adds up to a total of 100 points). If you have any ideas for the dance final or my campaign, let me know. :) It's greatly appreciated. I'm thinking I'll do a "blast from the past: returning to retro dance" theme for the final and a "It's a small school" theme for the campaign. My own twist on the "it's a small world" ride from Disney, to bring the Junior class together to do what's best for us. Let me know what you think and I really do need all the help I can get for this campaign. Thank you in advance. :) This just shows that ANYBODY can try something new. ;)

Society then and now

Yes, as the human race we have come a long way. We've gone from wearing bonnets and dresses that cover our feet, to "booty shorts" and "tank tops". We have more technology, resources, and knowledge now. A lot has changed just in the past thirty years. However, one thing remains the same. We all want to fit in. We want to please others. We're constantly being told who we should be and comparing ourselves to others. It isn't fair to anybody. Sometimes, we need to take a step back and look at how small the cross we have to carry really is. Instead of thinking, "I should do... to be perfect in the eyes of others." we should think, "I should do... to be a better person because I want to." It makes a world of difference. Society and the media will always work together to make people feel bad about themselves, but it's not a competition. You have to love yourself before you can love somebody else. Yes, we all have flaws. Yes, we can accept those flaws and call it perfection. If you don't see it as a flaw, is it really a flaw? NO! It makes you human and it makes you who you are. Love the "flaws" and others will admire you for not caring what others think. If you're "living in the shadow" of somebody that you look up to, you won't be there for long. Just find what makes you who you are and that should be enough for anybody worth getting to know better. You won't always be where you are now. The Middle by Jimmy Eat World is the perfect song to describe what I'm saying. Don't care what others think, try anything and everything, don't buy into the "ideal look", people will always talk, things will get better. :)

Rules

Yes, rules are important and need to be followed to keep society going. However, there is a line. The school has a policy that says personal websites (such as this) are not to be used on school computers. It's rediculous if you ask me. I as a student, should have the right to blog during my frist period class if I have all of my work done. I'm a good student and try hard in everything I do. Should I be punished for my hard work? Personally, I don't think it's fair. Yes, there are rules that should not be altered for special cases. I just think that it's lame for such a positive influence in my life to be banned by the school. Don't worry if I don't post as often anymore. I'm just busy during the day and can't post during first anymore. Good night! :)

Influence

You know those dumb commercials about how pirating videos is wrong and drugs are bad. Is that really stopping anybody from doing it anyway? No. Let's be realistic about this. Peer pressure is huge in the lives of teens all over the world. We want to please everybody, but if we hang out with the wring people it's impossible. Some days we're hanging out with our true friends and we'll see the people we always wanted to fit in with. They don't notice you, don't say hello. It's like you're invisible. That feeling is never a fun one, but sometimes it's what you need to keep you going. Taylor Swift's song invisible says, "I just want to show you, she don't even know you, she's never gonna love you like I want to, and you just see right through me, but if you only knew me, we could be a beautiful miracle, unbelieveable, instead of just invisible." If you're a good person, everybody wants to be your friend. They just need to see the real you first. If you're too quiet, life passes you by and you never get the chance to be the person you always wanted to be. You don't meet the right people, you don't get anywhere in life. What I really learned though, is that everybody feels invisible sometimes.  It's not a good feeling, but even the popular kids feel it. To me, that's a sign saying "Everything is going to be ok in the end. This isn't going to make or break you. Just do this now and there will be something better waiting for you around the corner." I may not be the best at spanish, but I do know that when somebody says "Nosotrors necisitamos vivir la vida loca." It means "We need to live a crazy life." Let's live like that and have some fun. ;)

Just another day

Just another day in life. Nothing new to discuss, no huge realization. It's just another beautiful day. I was thinking this morning though, and I noticed how much trouble some girls go through just to get the attention of some boy. It's rediculous how much emphasis society puts on "beauty". Who says that just becuase you're not size zero with perfect skin, that you're not pretty? Who decides what pretty is? Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. If you think that you're pretty, then you are. You don't need the approval of others. Yes, it's important to make a good impression on people, but at what cost? There are so many different diet pills, surgeries, etc. that make us think that there is something wrong with who we are as people. Hypothetically: if you get work done (let's say it's a nose) and you have a little girl that doesn't like her nose (the one you used to have). Do you tell her that her nose is perfect and she's beautiful the way she is? What if she finds out that you had your nose fixed? You can't be hypocritical with your children. It's sending them the wrong message. Children have to learn some things on their own and you can't always be there for them. That doesn't mean that you have to stay out of their lives. Children ask for a lot of stuff sometimes, but at the end of they day they know that you're doing everything you can to give them a good life. They don't need all the fancy stuff, if they know that you love them. Try telling them more often and explaining this to them next time they're asking for some new toy or crying because they don't get their way. It might help. ;)

True meanings

What is being fake? Is it not being yourself? Is it lying? Is it telling your daughter time and time again that you're going to be there for her and not showing up? Or is it just not loving your own kids? I'm done with him. How dare he say that I'm fake, when I'm always honest with him! I try to do what I can and be nice to him, but after so long of being lied to and disappointed you can only expect the worst from somebody. He may not have any authority in my life anymore, but he still plays a huge part. I've been told that this isn't true, but in my mind I hear, "He left us, he didn't want us, he doesn't love us." In my mind, every time he calls is like a little reminder. For days after that five minute phone call I think, "Why doesn't he love me? What happened to make him want to leave?" It may not be true in his mind or in reality, but that's what things like that do to a person. You question, you have doubts, you want to know what you could have done that would have made him want to stick around a little longer. He has put too things in the way of my happiness. Slowly, I've grown up because of him. I still have a long way to go though. If he can't love me enough to be in my life, then my mom can and I can love myself enough for both of us. It's funny. Not even a week ago I wanted to stop writing in my blog. Now, I can't stop writing and I like how getting stuff out in the open makes me feel. He can say whatever he wants to because it doesn't make or break me. "Love me or hate me, either way you're still thinking about me."-unknown

Back to the Future

This is a movie from 1985, where this teen accidentally goes back in time and keeps his parents from meeting. There is a lot of sentimental value to the movie and a lot of life lessons for teens to learn from it. However, if that was in 1985, where is the time machine now? We're in the year 2010 and technology has come a long way since our parents were kids. Just think about it. In the year 1938, child labor laws had just been passed for America. Students haven't always been as lucky as the students of today. Not long ago, kids didn't need cell phones, televisions, ipods, or computers. Everything was sentimental. Hand written notes, phone calls instead of texting, waiting to hear your favorite song on the radio or buying a record instead of downloading it onto your computer. What happened to the personal touch of life? Why can't we still be sincere in what we say and do, without losing the technology? We are humans and we do have flaws, but I believe that we could find a way to have both. Let's try turning off all electronics for an hour, just to see what happens. Instead of texting friends, try having a conversation with somebody in your house. It doesn't have to be some big discussion. Just a little bit of time to create memories, share memories, love the family that you've been given. I feel blessed to have such wonderful technology in my life and eveybody else should too. Not everybody has internet access at home, or a cell phone to text with. Some kids still have to use the house phone and do things that don't require technology. Answere me this: who is stronger when it comes to religion? Those who have everything that they could ever want, or those who are barely getting by? The correct answer is those just getting through this life. The people that seem to have it all really don't. They chase after material things because they have a God shaped hole in their heart and don't know how to fill it. Those that are trying to get through this economic downfall, they trust that the Lord will help them get through it unharmed and have filled the hole. Which will you chose today? Technology or family? Are you barely getting through or are you chasing material things? Think about this today and everyday. On Saturday I went to a church retreat for my ccd class and there was a lecture on gangs. We learned that you can do wrong now, but it's never too late to change. Let's be the people we want to be today, so that if tomorrow doesn't come we can say that we were true to what we believe and who we are. Good luck in whoever you choose to be and all that you do. You know what  the right thing to do for you is.

Time

Time always seems to go by so quickly. It seems like I just started high school and now it's almost half over. Where is all of this time going? It seems so far away now. I miss the memories, good and bad. I miss hanging out with friends and not having a care in the world. It feels like the ccd class just started and now I'm almost done with the first year. How does that work? I already picked my confirmation name. I've decided on Christiana. It means belinging to Christ and that HE will be my patron. If I get to decide on the baptism, I've decided that the best way for me, is the full emerson. I feel that I am ready to take on all of this responsability and love, so I should be able to do it the way that HE wants me to and the way that will move me the most. While we're always wanting time to go faster or slower, we need to appreciate it while we can. Make the most of life. It won't last forever. Nobody gets out of this life alive, so we may as well live like we're dying. Do the right thing while still having fun. You don't need anything to have fun except a positive attitude and people that care about you. Think about that next time you're reaching for something that you know isn't good for you. Just keep your faith and you'll do what's right for you. That's why we have our guardian angles. They watch over us. Let them guide you sometimes. They'll help you out of some sticky situations. There's a song and it has a great quote. It says, "Jesus take the wheel, take it from my hands, cause I can't do this on my own, I'm letting go, so give me one more chance, to save me from this road I'm on, Jesus take the wheel." We can't do everything on our own. We need Jesus to take the wheel sometimes. Let go of what happened long ago. Forgive and forget. Love your neighbor as you love yourself. Not only does He see the actions we do, but also the thoughts we have and what we feel in our hearts. Have a great day and keep this in mind as you try to follow the path closer to Him. :)

Long weekend

I usually don't write about weekends, but this weekend was... special. The term long varies in meaning. It can mean an extended weekend (three day weekends and such) or it can mean it just passed by slowly. In this case, it was just slow. Friday I had school and track practice. I was out really early and slept all through the night. Saturday, I got up at 7, was at church by 9, and didn't get home until a little after 4. I was back at church by 5 and didn't get home until about 6:15. My little sister had a friend spend the night and my friend came over a little later at about 8:30. We had fun for a while, but eventually everybody had to leave or go to sleep. My friend called to ask about our ccd class this morning, so I had to get up at about 7 even though class was cancled. Fell back asleep a few times, and was still tired. I went driving at noon and got yelled at for having fun with it. :/ Got home at 2 and saw the new Alice in Wonderland at 3. It wasn't the best movie, but it wasn't horrible either. Talked to my aunt for a while and we watched the new Hannah Montanna. It feels really late and I'm exhausted. Excited for the new week. Every day is a new day and we all have to keep moving forward. Try to be the best you that you can be. It's the best look for you. ;)

Life=music

While writing in my blog, I've learned that feelings need to be let out to the world more often. It can be done through poetry, stories, blogs, music, or just talking about it. Sometimes you can say more in a poem, song, etc. There's a song called "Break  Your Little Heart" by All Time Low. It really describes how I feel as a high school student with all of these lame boys hanging around me. It says: "I'm gonna break your little heart, watch you take the fall, laughing all the way to the hospital, cause there is nothing surgury can do when I break your little heart in two." For me, this says "I'm a heart breaker. You're going to fall for me, I'm warning you now. There isn't anything that I can do when you get hurt." Unfortunetly, I've been on both sides of this situation, but it makes you stronger sometimes. Another quote from All Time Low: "I'm over getting old. Maybe it's not my weekend, but it's gonna be my year and I'm so sick watching all the minutes pass as I go nowhere and this is my reaction to everything I fear cause I've been going crazy. I don't want to waste another minute here." Let's go wild! We're at the perfect point in our lives. Most of us can now drive, we're young, we're fun, we'll be wild while we can. After a while we won't be able to anymore. We'll have responsabilities and need to be role models for the younger generation. If we're wild now, we'll have the stories to tell them and explain why they shouldn't do the same thing. "We'll scream loud at the top of our lungs, and they'll think it's cause we're young and we'll feel so alive." Let's go live like we're dying and learn from our mistakes. We'll tell our kids one day and they'll understand why we don't want them to do the same. They'll know that they're loved and we only want what's best for them.

Half empty or half full?

So, it hasn't been my best week ever. :/ Lots of drama, lots of disappointment, and even more surprises. Life has a funny way of working itself out. The moments when I feel like breaking down and giving up, God gives me another reason to keep going. We all have our own cross to carry. Some of them are large and heavy. If you think that your life is horrible you should take a look at the person sitting next to you and think to yourself, "would I really want to change places with them?" Mother Teresa once said, "God wouldn't give me anything that I couldn't handle, I just wish he didn't trust me so much." We'll all make it through this life thinking about everything that happened and say, "Yeah, I had my ups and downs, but I wouldn't want it any other way." Before I sign off for the night I have something more important to say than keep living life to the fullest. I have a few apologies that I need to make and a few thank yous. To anybody that read this and told me it was great, thank you. Jaymes, thank you for being my first follower. :) Anybody that encouraged me to keep writing, thank you. If it hadn't been for all of you, I would have given up and deleted my blog. Anybody that was disappointed when I said I quit, I'm sorry. It was heat of the moment I guess. It means a lot to me that you all kept reading and wanting me to write more. Everybody that bought cookie dough for the track team or made a donation, thanks a million. Without that money we wouldn't have new equipment money for bus rides or invitationals, or our amazing coaches. The glass is always half full in life, you just need to learn to see it that way. Good night everybody! :)

Short and sweet

This phrase could mean anything when used in the right context. It can describe a person, it could describe an article, it can even describe an action done in the heat of the moment. Today it is describing me and the blog post of today. I'm giving blood in about thirty minutes, so I have to be fast. Just had a venti cafe mocha, so I'm ready to go and up for anything today. Just thinking about things to do in the future, you realize how slowly time goes. Some days we might not appreciate it, but one day we'll look back and want it to slow down even more. Life is short, life is beautiful, live like we're dying. Tomorrow isn't garunteed for anybody. Music seems really important today. We're all different in our music preferences. My personal favorites are things such as All Time Low, Taking Back Sunday, Brokencyde, Hyper Crush, The Brand New, and N.E.R.D. There are a lot more, but too many to name them all. Check out some of their songs. Sports play a big part in high school life. A lot of social events happen because of sports events. It's really lame that not all sports get the same funding. Why should cheerleaders and football players get more funding than the track team or softball? It's not fair to those athletes. All sports have the same work to do, they just do them in different ways. It's hard work and we should get the same amount of money. We should try to change it. Anyway, I'm now late for giving blood because of this and taking notes for keyboarding. Leave comments if you have any advice on how to change the funding. Thanks! Try to be a superstar today. Help heal the world. ;)

Addicted

So lent started back on Ash Wednesday (February 17). It made me think this year, that we all have one thing that we should change about ourselves. Lent is where those who believe in the Catholic faith give up something for approximately 40 days and we remember the 40 days Jesus spent in the desert before he was crucified. During this time we give up a vice or something important to us and try to become better people and follow the Lord. I realized today, that we're all addicted to something. Even if we don't know what it is or don't want to admit it, we are. It doesn't have to be something bad for you, illegal, or inappropriate. It just has to have a significant meaning in your life. I often feel like I'm addicted to multiple things. Some days it's drama, some days it's coffee, sometimes it's music, and some days it's just being me. :) Having an addiction doesn't mean you need to go to rehab or anything, it just means that you have a passion for something. Maybe if we all tried really hard, we could turn that passion into something beautiful. Instead of using it to fulfill our own selfish needs and wants, we could save the world. I may just be some optimistic teen, but I know that every little bit counts. When I work at VBS every summer, I see all of those young kids excited and ready to learn. I also see how few people take the time to help us out. Who's going to teach the kids about the bible if we don't? I read an article about this girl's life who was saved because everyday people donated blood. Where would she be if nobody had donated? What about all of the animals going extinct because they have no place to live? Global warming and our natural resources that are slowly disappearing? What are we going to do without them? Why don't we try something new? Instead of spending hours doing what's best for us, let's take an hour a week to do something good for the world. Let's create an A.R.K. (Act of Random Kindness) big enough to save the planet. We should listen to this years VBS theme "Step Up and Go Green for Jesus". We'll learn to do what He asks us to do and take care of all of His creations. One person can't save the world alone, but together we're unstoppable and we'll reach the ends of the universe. As children we were always told "If you shoot for the moon and miss, you'll at least catch a star. If you shoot for the lowest star and miss, you'll fall." Let's shoot for the moon and beyond. We wouldn't want to fall and let the world down. The children of the future want to see penguins and monkeys. Let's not let tomorrow's children down. :)

Words

In this world, there are many different languages and many more words that we all use to communicate. What do the words really mean though? I remember reading a book titled "Frindle", which is about a fifth grade boy that makes up his own word (frindle) instead of using the word pen. Does it really matter what we call it as long as everybody involved knows what they're talking about? Even William Shakespeare had Juliet say "What's in a name? That which we call a rose by any other name would smell as sweet." Just because we change the word used, doesn't mean that the thing changes. At which point, why are curse words considered "bad"? They only have a bad meaning if you want them to. If people think that words can hurt you, they're wrong. Words can only make us stronger. Don't get in a fight, beat your opponent in a battle of wits. Lately, people in my life have shown me that words have no real meaning and you can't care about the ones that they use if you're going to be who you are and follow your dreams. If you're a friend to somebody, don't lie to them. Be honest with them and tell them how you feel using actions. Actions speak louder than words sometimes. You just need to know how to use both in the off chance that your first option fails. You should always know who you're dealing with to decide what way to go in resolving a situation. Good luck with the many situations that may come up in your life and hopefully this helped. :) If anybody has a problem that they want discussed her, feel free to leave a comment.